Is no news really good news???

November 12, 2010 at 9:45 pm (General News..., Grumble, Interactions with Agents, Introduction to the Imagination of Amanda M. Holt, Literary blunders..., Possible directions..., Uncategorized) (, , , , , , , , , , , )

So……………….
………………….waiting to hear back on two (bigger) items in my life.

A) whether or not I passed the Canadian Registered Nursing Exam aka the CRNE, which I wrote on October 6 of this year….results were mailed out Monday, so I will likely find out Monday 🙂

B) whether or not Sandy Lu, Literary Agent at the L. Perkins Lit Agency in NY, NY, is going to represent a certain project I have written.

I am patient, and resolve that time will tell, and that quite possibly both items will be relayed to me with positive outcomes.

Still the wait for both items is a little nerve wracking.

Both of them have great ability to influence the rest of my nursing career and my writing career.

Additionally, the anxiety about whether or not I have passed the CRNE has given me the occasional bout of indigestion and (admittedly) a few sleepless nights. What if I have to write it again? What will my boss think of me if I have failed my first attempt? How little of the CRNE did I actually know or not know? I’ve always done well on written exams….but this one, it’s a toughy. I really am really on the fence about how well I did.

Some days, I feel utterly confident and relatively carefree.

Other days, I feel as though there is an element of impending doom on the horizon, waiting to prove that I am a fool among the brilliant people I work with!

Oh woe is me, woe is me —- no news is NOT good news.

I am, for the most part, a patient sort of creature.

I do not throw tantrums when I can’t find the remote (probably because I habitually keep it in the same place), and I like to engage in little word games and create-a-story exercises when I am i.e. waiting in line in grocery stores.

Yet waiting for the outcome of this exam? ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE!!!

I kid you not!!!!

And as for waiting to hear back from Ms. Lu….I’m not too terribly perturbed about that, because while she is reading one of my projects, I have many on the go that I feel have great merit, and many that I have jotted notes for — and not even steeped myself in the process of writing these gems yet — because the timing has not been right to write.

No I have not lost my mind, I’ve found that there’s a bit of timing, focus, wavelength, mindframe/frame-of-mind and setting/surrounding/ambiance that is necessary to write certain tales………they will begin to inspire me more, and begin to actually even “write themselves” when the time is right.

And besides, Ms. Lu is a busy woman in a career where busy people like her may juggle hundreds of projects at a time. If my project hasn’t shone through the slush pile as something worthy of her greatest efforts, then i predict that I will be receiving a polite rejection letter in due time…..

If she likes it, but thinks it needs revising and resubmission, then that is what a semi-rejection-rejection letter will say.

Then there is the ULTIMATE prize for a writer seeking representation by an agent: the letter outlining the next steps to enter into contractual obligation for representation by the agent, or the SUPREME ULTIMATE prize — an actual contract for publication.

There are variations, of course. After careful consideration, she could always suggest that she doesn’t handle these kinds of projects, and refer me to a different agent.

Ah, so many different ways that i could receive news about the project.

Interestingly enough, that anxiety is FAR more pleasant than the whole CRNE self-torment.

*sigh*

Does anyone out there understand?

Then again, i really should count my blessings. Some people are waiting for news with life-or-death outcomes, i.e. the results of an HIV test, or to see how far the cancer has spread through their lymphatic system. Then there are paternity tests (who’s the baby daddy), and all kinds of other life-changing situations.

Perhaps I should not be such a cry baby.

Oh, but wait.

This is the Blog that is supposed to be addressing some of the gains and losses, trials and tribulations, frustrations and successes of the amateur author(ess).

There you have it folks.

A little bit on the literary agent waiting game.

Looking forward to hearing from her, whatever the outcome.

Happy reading!

Sincere regards,

Amanda M. Holt
Amateur Authoress, Possible RN-eligible GN, and Sometimes Crybaby

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Fifteen days until Halloween!!! So excited!

October 16, 2010 at 11:58 pm (Book Sales (Humble Honesty Here), eXtasy Books Releases, General News..., Grumble, Possible directions...) (, , , , , , , , , )

So………..
…………..fifteen days until Halloween!!!!

Who’s excited?

I’m excited!

I have three (possibly four) functions to attend for Hallowe’en 2010: a zombie walk on Friday, a bowling party (this is the possible fourth), a house-warming-slash-costume party on Saturday, followed by the actual Halloween activities expected on any given October 31st!!!!!

I will be travelling — weather permitting — to see my dear DEAR friend Kay Kay, whose name you have seen in the dedications of a number of my ebooks. I promised her that wherever she is on Halloween, I will be there to celebrate it with her! Although sadly, my favorite restaurant will not be open on Sunday to serve me my traditional meal of pork medallions Marnier, winter vegetables, stuffed potatoe, and caramel pecan torte with a glass of red wine, but you know what? I will survive. Even if only McDonald’s is open for Angus burgers, I will survive.

Did I mention I love Halloween?

All those near and dear to me KNOW this to be true, as they received their Halloween cards about two weeks ago.

The plastic Jack-o-lantern and ghost have been in my office for about two weeks, along with the window sticky thingies. I was happy to see many psuedo-Pagans at work in the same celebratory spirit!

I’m looking forward to having my dear friend M.C aka Meeeeshell aka Michelle apply the latex zombie skin I picked up from wally-mart.

So excited, so excited, so excited.

Did I mention I’m excited!

The only sad note?

Extasy Books will not be releasing “My Experimental Years” until after October 31st (the originally planned release date was Oct 15).

In fact, they have not returned the manuscript to me for review yet.

My guess?

They are super-swamped with authors in the queue.

I can’t wait to see which cover they have decided on for My Experimental Years….there are some naughty Halloween themed goings-on in THAT novel-length tome!

Still also waiting to hear back from literary agent Sandy Lu.

It’s been over 12 weeks so I will email her soon-ish.

Wish me luck, you spook-tac-ular critters of the Net!

Sincere regards,

Amanda M. Holt
Amateur Authoress and sometimes zombie

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BOUND: A Post-Apocalptic Lust Story sent to NCP…and news!!!!

July 14, 2010 at 9:08 pm (Ellora's Cave updates..., General News..., Grumble, Literary blunders..., Possible directions..., Queried novels/novellas *news*, Uncategorized) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , )

So……………………………….
………………………………….Ellora’s Cave politely declined “Bound: A Post-Apocalyptic Lust Story” (featuring the warrioress Ana in her jungle home and the fertility researcher she encounters) on the grounds that they did not feel it was a good fit for their women’s interracial line of erotica.

Therefore, I submitted it to my publisher NCP (New Concepts Publishing, http://www.newconceptspublishing.com) to see if they would be interested in putting it to print.

ALSO……………….NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have a very interesting commercial fiction agent reading the first book of my Reaper Series of novels….I DO SO HOPE SHE CHOOSES TO REPRESENT ME!!!!!!!!!!!! Cross your fingers, fans, cross your toes, cross whatever it takes to get the Reaper Series off the ground….There’s so much I want to do with that storyline, a little incentive would be just the thing to give me the peace of mind (that it is a good investment of time and energy at this point in my life/writing career).

ALSO…………………………
……………………………….I have three shifts left of my student Senior Practicum as a BN student, and then — PROVIDED I PASS — I have my BN degree!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY FOR ME!!!!!

It’s been a LONG time coming!!!!!!

Then, there’s the CRNE exam in October, to become a registered nurse, and then if I pass that, I am a genuine freaking RN.

WOWSERS.

How time does fly when you’re having fun and keeping preoccupied.

Until next time, happy reading, and enjoy (what’s left of) the summer.

(we’ve had a great deal of rain here, and thunderstorms scheduled for tonight)

Sincere regards,

Amanda M. Holt
Amateur Authoress and Pending BN

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