Point A to Point B may not be a straight line…

June 16, 2010 at 4:25 am (General News..., Grumble, Introduction to the Imagination of Amanda M. Holt, Possible directions..., Uncategorized) (, , , , , )

So…………………………………………………
……………………………………………………opportunities are presenting themselvs from a number of locations, but here’s the dilemma:

A. Love my new apartment, but there are limited employment opportunities in this area for GNs/BNs/RNs.
B. The Community Health Nurse Development Program in the NWT has cancelled/postponed applications, due to lack of funding.
C. Feeling a certain degree of restlessness. Wondering if I should push my envelope a little more, exercise my options, take some (small and reasonable) risks.
D. Coming to the conclusion that I would have to be INSANE to think that I could handle the role of charge nurse in an ER environment immediately after graduation.
E. There might (MIGHT) be a possibility (read: possibility) of working as a public health nurse or community health nurse in STI prevention, which is EXACTLY where I want to be in my career path (the only question is, how much experience should one accumulate prior to chasing down one’s dreams with all the fervor of a rabid rabbit???).

Okay, that is multiple dilemmas, and there are more…

…Haven’t done any writing in the last few days, and that is n my conscience. Haven’t done any lengthy studying either, but that is because I don’t want to re-injure my neck so soon after making a full recovery. Studying with my laptop is an option….there’s always WebMD…and Canadian Nursing websites…

Had an EXCELLENT telephone chat with both my biological mother and surrogate mother/mother by proxy….these helped me put things in perspective….

Still, it feels as though the sands beneath my feet are shifting, and I must reposition myself to keep equilibrium, a good sound foot hold on the vast dune whose name is Challenge.

Okay….enough self-absorption for one evening.

Time to shower. It was plus 27 today at one point, and the new place was sweltering!

Sincere regards,

Amanda M. Holt

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Bugger, bugger, bugger!

June 10, 2010 at 6:25 am (General News..., Grumble, Possible directions..., Uncategorized) (, , , , )

So……………………………..
………………………………..I hurt my neck.

Again.

Not sure HOW I did it this time, but the sizzling dazzling pain woke me up at about 4 am and again at 5-ish and then finally at 7. Work was less than impressed with my sick day. My chiropractor — GOD BLESS HIM, YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS MAN, HE’S A MIRACLE WORKER (Dr. Mark Symchych, Dauphin) — fixed me up pretty good, but I think it’s gone out again. Something sounds crunchy when I turn my head.

So let’s not be turning our head, then, silly girl — right?

Right.

Sorry. I’ve taken a muscle relaxant and am not making a great deal of sense right now, I know.

In other news, mid-term senior practicum evaluation went well-ish, good-ish, although I do have a few concerns….there is always room for improvement, and I seem to know my limitations…

Spoke with my course advisor. Have extended my practicum by 4 days so that I can make up for this injury sick time…Oh well. Four days isn’t THAT bad of a stretch….although admittedly, a single night on the ward can seem to take FOREVER at times…

I have to try to find a comfortable position in bed: this is madness, it really is.

I wonder if this is anything like what people with chronic pain, say as in fibromyalgia, feel like (although I imagine their pain would be excruciating).

There is an upside to this. Dr. S said no exercising for a while. That means no masochistic forcing myself to the gym for the grueling time on the treadmill 🙂

Sincere regards,

Amanda M. Holt

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So I says to the bartender I says: where’re all the 30+ single men in this town?

June 8, 2010 at 6:35 am (General News..., Grumble, Possible directions..., Uncategorized) (, , , , )

So………………………………………………………
………………………………………………………… I says to the barkeep, I says: Where are all the unnattached 30+ men in this town hiding out???

“Honey,” she begins with a laugh, “If you find yourself a thirty year old unnatched man in THIS town, he’s unnattached for a reason.”

There was a round of laughter and muted sounds of agreement among the people in attendance.

And so in malcontentment I have to wonder……is it wise to look for a partner in this town? In surrounding communities? If their (this evening’s acquaintances’) opinions are anything to go by, this place may not be ripe for the picking.

What’s a single thirty-year old gal to do in a man-drought like this?

*sigh*

Immediate solution? Eat chocolate, go to the gym, and invest in batteries, not necessarily in that order.

Eventual solution? Find suitable compatible mate with which to build comfortable nest with great view. Mates with offspring from previous relationships welcome and encouraged to apply, as complaintant has NO interest (READ: zero interest as in nonexistent interest with absolutely no room for negotiation or compromise abolutely NOT a BREEDER NO NO NO) in childbearing.

“Hmmph,” Amanda muttered to herself. “I thought I said I was finished with self-absorbed reflection for the day?”

It’s late, and I’ve promised a letter to a very dear friend. I’d best get on with it……….

Sincere regards,

Amanda M. Holt

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Half-way point of Nursing Practicum………….midterm evaluation this week!!!

June 8, 2010 at 2:32 am (General News..., Grumble, Introduction to the Imagination of Amanda M. Holt, Literary blunders..., Possible directions..., Uncategorized) (, , , , , , , , , )

So…………………………………………………………………………
……………………………………………………………………………mid-term evaluation for my Nursing Practicum this week, and I admit, i am a little nervous. I know that I shouldn’t be: both of my preceptors are great, very supportive, and I have been asking for feedback regularly (READ: every single day like the neurotic insecure little nursing student I am). Yes, I need more confidence (according to my “coworkers” it will come in time). Yes, I need to pcik up my pace (admittedly, I feel I have improved in this area — second guessing myself less, and learning the routing helped alot). And I do need to practice my skills whenever the opportunities present themselves. I think I am doing well with the psychosocial aspects of client care, the nurturing, goal-setting, et cetera, et cetera……………..

Now if only I could memorize every step to every procedure and every aspect of every medication and every preference of every client 🙂 Why can’t our brains work like instantly-accessible storage units where you just have to think of the word “SEARCH”, psychically key in the subject you are looking up, and find what it is in the recesses of your mind you are looking for????

LOL Okay, okay – enough silly self-involvement for one evening.

Time to do something constructive with the rest of my night off, like edit my sensual contemporary romance “Her Man” (I know, the title sucks with a capital SUCK) of 57, 000 words or OR or review laboratory tests and normal test range values and do some more mid term assignment work……..I DID designate tomorrow as “Finish Homework Day” though, not to be confused with “Finnish Homework Day” the day people from Finland celebrate the liberation of working from home (less of a commute that way, I hear).

Okay, I’m pulling your leg – there’s no such thing as Finnish Homework Day. Or is there? I mean the Internet is THAT bizarre these days………………………….and there’s a celebration for EVERYTHING.

(This coming from a Manitoban, where we have these things called SOCIALs…..in May we had a Manitoba Homecoming social [big party, dance, drink fest] where we celebrated the World’s Largest Social [a Manitoba-wide social]. I don’t know if we actually set or broke any records, but long story short, people from Manitoba are so sociable we delight in having sociables [Socials: wedding socials, anniversary socials, Halloween socials, fundraising socials, New Years socials, etc etc] just to prove how sociable we can be).

Ok, I did say I would stop.

Stopping now.

Sincere regards,

Amanda M. Holt

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